People make and break New Year's resolutions like my dogs love to chew and break my jandals. It's like this need to conform to society's expectations, yet rebel against it on the inside. I stopped doing resolutions in high school, partly from laziness, and at that time I knew I didn't have the mindset to follow it through. Hey, at least I was honest from the outset, right?
I wear many faces, I could call them masks, but I think mask represents a fakeness that I'm not. The "faces" I show are different sides of me, depending on my role and what society needs from me. I play the game, and keep my private side for my closest friends and family. This may come as a surprise to many, but I'm an extremely private person, yet lead a public life...a sociable introvert.
The Sociable Introvert
Introverts are often stereotyped as loners, probably hanging out at the library reading an encyclopaedia, sipping on carrot juice (maybe the carrot juice is more hipster than anything). Introverts like people, they may just prefer their own company than a loud party, or getting lost in their thoughts, with an enriched imagination that can only be envied.
I believe I'm an introvert at heart, which will surprise a lot of people who know me through my dancing. Many don't know that I only started performing at this level at 19 years old. I spent most of my time listening in social situations, there was always someone else who wanted to talk so I let them. People don't realise how much you can learn when you listen to the words they use, what they wish they had the courage to say. Sometimes I think people who talk a lot distract you from discovering who they really are.
What is the best thing about being an introvert? As I grow older, I understood that I could let go of the fear of being alone. And that meant the friendships and relationships in my life were rich in love, genuine care and understanding. Those who make it into my inner circle see the raw version of me, living my truth, happy as.